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Virginia Woolf`s heart-touching suicide note to husband

Mohammad Rayhan || risingbd.com

Published: 10:26, 16 January 2021  
Virginia Woolf`s heart-touching suicide note to husband

Virginia Woolf (Adeline Virginia Woolf Stephen) was a famous English writer. She was born in England in 1882. She was widely known as a feminist. She was a novelist, essayist, and critic.

Virginia lost her mother at an early age and suffered sexual abuse by her stepbrothers. In the years following her mother’s death, Woolf experienced a succession of trauma. Her half-sister Stella passed away two years later and in 1904 her father died from stomach cancer.

In 1912, she married Leonard Woolf. After their marriage, she suffered from bipolar disorder, hallucinations as well as periods of mania. She was fully unable to participate in her active social life and found it nearly impossible to focus on writing as well.

Her husband tried to reduce this disease. But during this time, the treatment of Bipolar was much extended. With the inadequacy of digitalized medical treatment, they had only negative results during that time. Woolf tried to suicide by many attempts.

But Misfortune attacked on the morning of March 28 in 1941. When Woolf's husband Leonard went to the office, she put his coat and boot. She filled her overcoat pockets with rocks and walked into the river. After this incident, Leonard found two suicide notes. One was addressed to him, and the other to her sister, Vanessa.

Virginia Woolf's suicide note to his lovely husband given below:

Dearest,

I feel certain I am going mad again. I feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can’t concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don’t think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. I can’t fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can’t even write this properly. I can’t read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that – everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can’t go on spoiling your life any longer. I don’t think two people could have been happier than we have been.

Mohammad Rayhan studies English Literature at the Govt. Titumir College, Dhaka

Titumir College/Mahfuz